Hi friends, it’s been a while (like, a month & a half while)! I thought writing + my blog was on the top of my priority list, especially after quitting my day job but — HA! Yeah right. It’s not, but at least it’s still a once-in-a-while hobby. I think we need those, our own “once-in-a-while hobbies” to energize us and refocus us. Mine are running, getting a pedicure, writing in my journal (or, if I have a few hours, on my blog) and napping. We need these activities because life is full of surprises. Some are amazing, some are imperfect, but we find fulfillment from our crazy, chaotic lives in the Gospel of Jesus Christ.
For the past 13 days, and the following 15, I am living out my husband’s gigantic worn-out missionary suitcase moving house to house as I tend children of various families while the parents go out of town for mini getaways or work-related trips. I refer to myself as “The Travelling Nanny” because it’s who I am, really! It’s a fun gig where I’m able to meet so many cute little kids, drive them to and from school and soccer practice in a snazzy SUV, treat them to a McDonald’s happy meal or a ride on the Ferris Wheel at Scheel’s Sporting Goods, say prayers with them and tuck them into bed. It’s also hard when I don’t know how to help a third grade boy with his math homework, when I have to bribe a 5 year old girl with a squirt of whipped cream every single morning to let me brush her hair, break up sibling wars, pick up toys, clean endless amounts of dirty dishes and ketchup-stained t-shirts, barely have time to wash my own hair and I can’t kiss my husband goodnight because he’s still at home working hard in school.
At one particular moment on a Sunday morning when I was doing all I could to get three little kids under the age of 5 ready for Sacrament meeting on time, I cried to myself. I was exhausted and bored of constantly catering to every child’s demands and following the same routines every day. I thought to myself, “I don’t want this life one day!” then I cried and cried because I was surprised (one of those imperfect surprises) and incredibly hurt I would even think that way because I knew it wasn’t true. I knelt next to the bed and asked Heavenly Father to help me through the next 3 hours, that I would have a better attitude and I could feel some kind of comfort that day. I knew with the little kids being in Sunbeams and nursery, I would have at least an hour to attend Relief Society, and I was so excited. (I can’t imagine how real moms feel every Sunday when they can enjoy a mini break!)
As I sat in the back row when the sisters began with the opening song and prayer, I was pleasantly surprised (one of those amazing surprises) when I was asked to do something I hadn’t done in a long time. I was asked to stand with a room full of women to recite the Young Women theme. I could hardly believe that I remembered each and every word (another amazing surprise) and through each one I spoke, different thoughts swirled throughout my brain about what I was taught throughout my years as a Young Woman in the church.
We are Daughters of our Heavenly Father
Who loves us, and we love Him.
We will “stand as witnesses of God at all times and in all things and in all places” (Mosiah 18:9)
as we strive to love the Young Women values, which are:
Choice and Accountability
We believe as we come to accept and act upon these values, we will be prepared
to strengthen home and family, make and keep sacred covenants, receive the ordinances of the temple,
and enjoy the blessings of exaltation.
These precious words reminded me of the testimony I gained as a young woman. Because of this theme, I know I am a daughter of God. I know He loves me. I know I have stood as a witness for Him multiple times throughout my life and as I did so, I was blessed in personal, sacred ways. I know that as long as I do all I can and do my absolute best to live each of these values, as I live by faith, as I recognize my worth, as I account for my good and bad choices, as I am honest and virtuous in my doings, I will bring myself, my husband, and my family back to our Heavenly Father. After all, family is the most efficient way to become like Him!
Listening to the Young Women theme that particular afternoon was the best message I could have heard that day. I encourage you to read it, study it, remind yourself of it because even for me in my crazy, chaotic babysitter life, I found fulfillment from it & the Gospel of Jesus Christ. There may be responsibilities you have in this life you might feel you aren’t ready for or capable of. There is so much we can stress and worry about (having the beds made, making sure the kitchen floor is swept, the kids have clean underwear, homework is done, the dog is fed, etc. etc. etc.) but as we follow the commandments and teach them to our families, God will keep us spiritually safe. And no matter what kind of life we have right now or the kind of life we will have one day, we are preparing each and every moment to “strengthen our home and family.” Plus, I can only help but think this babysitter life is prepping me for one heck of an efficient & fun mom life!